“If I pray to you in confidence, then I know my prayers will be granted”
I am checking in for a Monday morning post just because my little baby girl is sound asleep besides her daddy,but most importantly because I am inspired.
So today I asked God for something. A desire of my heart for a long time, something that has been a cause of my worry, anxiety and fear. You know, for the longest time I have been asking God for things to happen, for things not to happen, and so and so. I pray to him when I am scared, when I am mad and when things are not going “my way”.
But now, I realize that oftentimes when I pray, I pray empty prayers.
Empty Prayers.
Such a strong word I know, but that’s the way I can describe it perfectly. Because even after me praying and asking, I still go on with my days with lots of worries, fears and anxieties. I torture myself by constantly dreading the future. I scare myself to death by trying to predict that the unknown future brings pain and trouble.
I lose my composure in the slightest life detour. I get all panicky in small struggles. When things do not go smoothly around our household and when my heart is broken or pride shaken, I growl inside and I start to hate my life. Then I begin to hate people, hate situations and hate the place I am in. Such an ugly, ugly scene. Now imagine, this happens often. It takes away so much from the quality of my life and it robs me of the chance to enjoy the beautiful things around me and to enjoy the people I am blessed with.
A year-ender burn out made me change.
Now I know that my ways are wrong and my prayers were just made of empty words. I forgot that when I pray, God has already started the works for me. I forgot that when I pray, I should do so confidently and believe that everything is being taken care of, even the smallest details. I forgot that when I pray, I should leave all worries and fears behind because God will grant my heart’s desires in the perfect time.
I know it is not easy not to be scared, because our daily life is not composed of perfect moments. Life has flaws, yes. But I don’t think that such flaws are intended to make me suffer. I don’t think God wants me to suffer in anyway, especially by my self-inflicted pain and fears. I should not spoil my life by being scared. I should enjoy what is beautiful. I must find joy in the little things. I guess God does not give us Peace right out of the box. It takes a little work from our part. I find it hard to surrender, to not be scared and to let go of my worries. But I think that is what God wants me to do: To pray to him with confidence and then let go; To have Faith and believe that everything will be okay.
To enjoy life,feel his love and do not let imperfect moments take anything away.
You are loved. When you pray, God is working.
Peace is within our reach,closer than we know it. Now that I am aware of the good feeling it brings, I don’t want to be without Peace. That Peace within you that says “Its Okay. Walk with your face up and be calm, A greater power is guiding you that is bigger than any flaw this life can have”.
I’ve heard it a couple of times in the sermons, and I think I’ve read it somewhere also, that when we pray, it should be with the intention that our desires would be in line with His will. That has always given me comfort that I have spoken of my desires, but that letting His will be done, I can always be at peace that whatever happens, it is because He allowed it. Truth is, even if we don’t pray, God is always at work.
Lastly, I’d just like to say that to give life to prayers, it should transform us. I pray that you will continue to grow in His love.
Thank you Aileen for your insights! Always feel good to have somebody enlighten me,
This is exactly what I need right now sis. Thank heavens I have come by your blog post. 🙂 I have this dreaded, most dreaded thing actually and I thought it was dead. Nil. But no, it came back to haunt me this morning. How I wish it would die out soon again. Thanks for your beautiful reminder. I’ll put that in mind.
I hope you feel better soon sis! I am glad to have reminded you!