“If I pray to you in confidence, then I know my prayers will be granted”
I am checking in for a Monday morning post just because my little baby girl is sound asleep besides her daddy,but most importantly because I am inspired.
So today I asked God for something. A desire of my heart for a long time, something that has been a cause of my worry, anxiety and fear. You know, for the longest time I have been asking God for things to happen, for things not to happen, and so and so. I pray to him when I am scared, when I am mad and when things are not going “my way”.
But now, I realize that oftentimes when I pray, I pray empty prayers.
Such a strong word I know, but that’s the way I can describe it perfectly. Because even after me praying and asking, I still go on with my days with lots of worries, fears and anxieties. I torture myself by constantly dreading the future. I scare myself to death by trying to predict that the unknown future brings pain and trouble.
I lose my composure in the slightest life detour. I get all panicky in small struggles. When things do not go smoothly around our household and when my heart is broken or pride shaken, I growl inside and I start to hate my life. Then I begin to hate people, hate situations and hate the place I am in. Such an ugly, ugly scene. Now imagine, this happens often. It takes away so much from the quality of my life and it robs me of the chance to enjoy the beautiful things around me and to enjoy the people I am blessed with.
A year-ender burn out made me change.
Now I know that my ways are wrong and my prayers were just made of empty words. I forgot that when I pray, God has already started the works for me. I forgot that when I pray, I should do so confidently and believe that everything is being taken care of, even the smallest details. I forgot that when I pray, I should leave all worries and fears behind because God will grant my heart’s desires in the perfect time.
I know it is not easy not to be scared, because our daily life is not composed of perfect moments. Life has flaws, yes. But I don’t think that such flaws are intended to make me suffer. I don’t think God wants me to suffer in anyway, especially by my self-inflicted pain and fears. I should not spoil my life by being scared. I should enjoy what is beautiful. I must find joy in the little things. I guess God does not give us Peace right out of the box. It takes a little work from our part. I find it hard to surrender, to not be scared and to let go of my worries. But I think that is what God wants me to do: To pray to him with confidence and then let go; To have Faith and believe that everything will be okay.
To enjoy life,feel his love and do not let imperfect moments take anything away.
You are loved. When you pray, God is working.
Peace is within our reach,closer than we know it. Now that I am aware of the good feeling it brings, I don’t want to be without Peace. That Peace within you that says “Its Okay. Walk with your face up and be calm, A greater power is guiding you that is bigger than any flaw this life can have”.