Some weeks ago, I wrote a post about deciding on what studies to pursue. It was an exciting time, knowing that there are so much possibilities ahead of me. I spent lots of time and energy to be able to come up with a decision. It was fun at first, then I reached a point of exhaustion.
Was I even like this when I decided to take up Chemistry when I entered the university? I don’t know. I don’t remember anymore. All I know is that , this time, I want to be more sure and deliberate in making a decision.
So after lots of sleepless nights and hours and hours of researching for job potentials, college programs and job descriptions, I have finally made a decision.
To follow the heart is always right, and if I want something with all of my heart, I’d jump to it in a heartbeat, without second thoughts and without doubts. My scenario was not like following the heart at all: changing my mind every 20 minutes and switching from one choice to another. It just does not seem right. There are lots mental clutters and I drove myself crazy. So I finally stopped and realized, there must be nothing in all these choices and jobs out there that I really, really want.
I am already doing what I want. It is not really my professional job, but at least I already have a grasp of what I want: I write here about my passions, It is not ambitious nor grand but this is what I want. And I have all power in my hands to make this little passion reach greater heights someday.
I don’t want to jump into something and end up doing a job that I really don’t want. At least this is it for now. Blogging,writing. This is what I want to grow into. This is what I want to see develop and grow someday.
So yeah. No books or classes for me yet.Only cupcakes,maybe.
Talk ( write?) to you soon!