Life ( Motherhood) is A Beautiful Roller Coaster Ride

I really ( suck) in dealing with separation anxiety.

Oh wait. .. sorry! Can you believe I am still talking about my daughter’s first week in daycare? If you have not been around lately, I have been rambling and blabbering out my mind here and here . And for you who have been following along, sorry if I have been bombarding you with all the motherhood blahs and blahs.

Yes it is still about my daughter going to the daycare center for the first time. But today, I am gonna pass on talking about my drama, not only because you may be getting tired of it, but also because I feel that for the three days of daycare so far, we are doing fine and we are easing in very nicely.

As expected, my daughter was all giddy seeing all those kids and books and toys in the center. On our first day, after we kissed and hugged goodbye, I couldn’t get her attention anymore as she wandered through all those toys. So good to see. Yet an hour after I got to work, I started worrying.

But I let  those questions burst like bubble thoughts in my head. Later when I picked her up , I saw a little girl in a superwoman costume running towards me and threw herself in my arms. She was happy. She looked tired, but happy, and that is enough for me to relax.

Okay. I am stopping there. You know, I could go on for hours and hours but this daycare issue that has been going on for days has to stop. Unless I want this blog to look like my diary !

My life routine this week so far involves waking up at 4 am so I can do yoga ( which I hope I can keep up with ), cook if I have to, eat breakfast with Adrian , have shower ( not with Adrian) , get dressed and prepare our lunches to work . I try to get all things done before my daughter wakes up.This way, I can focus on her alone the moment she is awake. Because my daughter is away from home for about 6 hours, I have to be sure that any time that is left for us is time well spent.Quality time, as they say.

Aanndd, as I get off work, I rush out the door so I can pick her up from the uhmmm…. daycare ,which is just a block away. Then at home, we enjoy our time, wait for daddy; I cook our lunches for the next day. Then we clean up.We goof around. The routine, the usuals. Bed. Sleep. Then repeat everything the next day.

Do you realize it too? That having a routine without thought is something we have to be cautious about? I read a post from Pinterest and I quote:

There is some truth in what is says, don’t you think?  Sometimes, we do something out of routine. We do something just because that is what we usually do, and we believe for a long time that our life is made to be that way, until one day,  a circumstance shakes us up and we begin to question ourselves,

Ever since I became a busy woman, being a wife and a mother, I tend to fall easily in to living life without much thought. I want to get things done in  my checklist each day. But then, it is also motherhood and having a family that always draw me back in a little corner in my heart to think about the value that I give life each day. And having a daughter is such a delicate task in that I have this innocent little person that is all mine to mould. It is in this early years that I make the first valuable impact in her life. 

And the thing about this life- it seems that it is forever, yet each day goes by fast.  Its funny because yesterday, I was looking at my daughter’s pictures which were taken 2 or 3 months ago, and I wanted to cry. How has she grown so fast? Now I can imagine how I will cry a river once I look at her pictures in one, two , three,  even eighteen years from now!

Big Sigh. I bet that not one Mommy cannot relate to what I am saying, that they do grow sooo fast!