Right now, I am basking in this glorious feeling, having this easy Friday night and not minding  any “to do list” at all.
Right now, I am totally idle while waiting for my dough of cinnamon rolls  to rise, watching Food Network and writing this post.
Right now, my daughter is fast asleep in bed, and earlier, her you tube videos are competing with the sound of the TV.
Right now I am enjoying this fine weather, It is warm inside the house and occasional draft of wind is blowing through the window to my right.
Right now, I am totally wishing I have a decent computer chair, (or do they call that office chairs?), because I am hunched  sitting in a stool while writing this post.
Right now is one of those moments I want to freeze: good weather,  cinnamon rolls  and mindless TV . I don’t usually give in to idleness , but now is an exception.
Right now, I just want to set aside my list of so many things and my activities by the hour. I just want to be right here, right now. Silent,calm,easy.
Right now, I think I just want to give in..
to idleness,
to nothingness,
and to just being me.
But this alone time, It actually feels weird, feels different.
There is no one whose name I have to call ten times just to get her attention. There is no one’s mess I have to look after.
Nobody’s needing my attention. Nobody’s calling my name.
No sweet voice.No shrieks. No giggles.
I guess I am not used to the silence anymore. I guess I don’t mind having a messy house and noisy environment. It is perfectly fine to clean up after somebody, to have sore throat from reading bedtime stories, and for the word mommy to be called hundred times a day,
as long as I have these
So I think I must go to bed and return to what is normal tomorrow,
but first, a few pieces of cinnamon rolls .
This post’s alternative title is ” The Age of Selfies”.
Good night!
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