Sunday, July 20, 2014
Hashtag mommy woes.
Sorry for the lack of a better title. I just feel this post could have been tweeted or instagrammed instead because it is just me with my blabbers, only that 140 characters wont fit.
Last night in bed, my daughter and I were spontaneously locked in each others arms. Its about one week before she goes to daycare center for the first time. I was so anxious and worried, and she had no clue.
The hug felt like it was all I needed. We just laid there naturally, her little hands fondling the back of my neck.I wished for the moment, literally, to never end. I just wished I didn't have to leave her to another new place. I was thinking she is too young to go to the daycare. And I wished that the moment of our hug could just stay on for longer, for days and years on end. So I did not have to leave her, or to let her go.
She looked so content and happy; So assured inside my arms while my mind was racing with so many thoughts. Will she be okay? Will she look for me? Will she seek comfort being in a new place? What if they cant understand her words? Will she nap? Will she eat? I know .. I am worrying way too much! I get disapproving remarks from Adrian from all my blabbers and worries. I know He is right when he says its gonna be ok.
When I look at my daughter, I know I am being unfair for undermining her capabilities. Maybe because she is my baby, I tend to overlook how independent she is. At such a young age, she has shown unusual social skills. She loves to be around people. She loves exploration, she is rarely shy. She can play independently for hours. Those things give me the strength and assurance to finally accept this daycare thing. I still can remember my pain when I had to leave her at home so I can go back to work. I feel it again now, Yet , I realize that My daughter has shown for the past two years that when this day come, she will be okay.
I never thought I will resort to daycare, not that I am against it or something. I have full trust in well trained staff and educators, Its just that I cant help but worry! I look up to all the mothers who had gone through this. Because I know we all want to be with them EVERY step of the way. We want to be the one to guide them in all their firsts. And we want to be with them in these early years.. Because it such a short , short period.. But then when the thing called WORK gets in the way, somehow we give up that ideal situation. But we never stop wishing and even trying to make that ideal possible.
Like everything, I know this is just a phase. I don't know how the first day in daycare will go for my daughter, maybe she will like it or maybe she wont. For me, it is sure to be emotional. But hopefully after that first day, things will be easier.
These mommy woes.. I have excitement, joy , fear, worry and anxiety going on inside me at the same time!
In the back of my mind, I know my baby will have fun mingling with other kids. She will love all the reading, role play and singing. She will be awed by the day care field trips. She will grow and learn.
She will be okay.
So mommy should stop worrying. Or at least lessen it.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Last weekend, I got a grill pan from Ikea which was on sale. It is always fun to visit Ikea because aside from the very affordable and hearty breakfast in their restaurant, you get to see lots of kitchen and home stuff too, on sale! So the grill pan was one of the things that caught my eye, aside from the 4 pack of hangers which was .99 cents. :)
So for the first installment of Food Ideas Weekly, my grill pan takes center stage.
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Last week I was enticed to cook Pork Binagoongan after seeing it being prepared on TV. I rarely cook pork dishes except if it does not involve a lot of chopping like this one. The simplicity and ease of preparation is such a win- win in my list. You know, having a toddler and being such a novice cook require that dishes should contain only , at most, 5 ingredients to chop!
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Canada day yesterday was rainy and gloomy and It could have dampen anyone's spirit. It could have dampened our spirits too because we were firm in the morning that we are not going out for the day because there is not any hint of summer out there.
But we did go out anyways. Off to the Forks park we went, where the center of all festivities for Canada day in Winnipeg happens.
At lunch time, we had to wait for empty seats because lunchers ( yes that is a word ) were all coming in for a bite inside the forks market. So while we waited, we wandered around to see lots of Manitoba trademarks and products.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
One of the two pasta dishes that I was able to make through the hard weeks we have gone through is this. You know, those times when you have the drive to go on and make life seem like it is back to normal- this was one of those. One of my initial signs of trying to move on.
Moving on feels nice. Fresh start. Sorting emotions and getting everything together. While I don't have a whole lot of energy to bake and really stay in the kitchen yet, this tuna pasta is a very good one for a start.
It feels good to be back here and it is nice to be sharing my stuff again and learning so much from the great blogs I adore.
I look forward to baking and cooking and learning from you again!
Continue for the recipe..