Hello everyone, my dear virtual friends. We are here. It is almost the end of the month, and it is time for another Thursday Thoughts. The year started with my girls staying in for remote learning, which was glorious because having them at home all day gives me so much joy. But also, it is chaotic. And I know you know what I mean. Parents of young kids? Hi there!
Lately, I have been thinking about the way with which I approach my work and career, which is this blog. You may know that I definitely slowed down and took a laid-back approach when I got pregnant. Within the first year of my baby’s life, the blog stayed in the background as well, as I focused on the baby and some freelance work.
To Strive or to Flow?
Right now, I will be lying if I say my heart does not hurt a little when I scroll thru my page feed and see all the beautiful food videos, contents, and projects of wonderful creators like me. I definitely want to create more and advance more. There are a couple or more projects I want to take on, like a cookbook, for one.
But then, but then, hmm. Before my pregnancy, I was working very hard, I was definitely striving, weekend, nights, early morning. Looking back, I think it was not so much the workload that makes me tired, but the mindset– that to achieve, I have to work hard, lose sleep, and push, push, push.
The thing is, I don’t see this mindset working for me right now, right here, at this season of my life. My kids’ energy is thru the roof. My eldest now wants to sleep alone in her room, and I cannot even remember when was the last time she threw her arms around me. Wait? what? but this is the same girl who is so crazy about me since the day she was born. She grew. She grew and grew right before my eyes. And during the pandemic, she grew under my nose that I did not even notice when was the last time she let me do her hair or the last time she asked for me at bedtime.
And don’t get me started about how my second child has her own BFF other than me now. 😍
I recently read an Instagram post (I could not remember who is it from😥 ), and it hit home. It is something about motherhood (or parenthood) and 3 am, or not exactly. But the message is like this: That, once your children have grown, you will wish instead that you are still up at 3 am and feeding them, or losing sleep taking care of them instead of any other things because they grow up so fast. And they do. Man, they do.
So to strive or to flow, is the question of my life. Because I can definitely do more when it comes to work/career and creating, but… I don’t want to. I’d be honest, flowing is more of my jam these days, and if the day comes when I feel like pushing and working hard, and striving, I think I will. But right now, flow with the time that I have, flowing with what I am only able to do each day is what is best for me.
And it is just me, right at this time, this season. There is no judgment for anyone who is rocking it in a different approach, because like I said, it is me. Right now, right here and it feels effing right. An added bonus is, the more I give myself space and not push myself, the more I fall in love with blogging and creating over and over again. The more relaxed I am, the more inspirations come to me.
I feel like my job right now is to love myself more, because, in turn, that allows me to give more to my family, my work, and to all other areas of my life.
How About You?
What is your life question right now? It is both funny and empowering that if you have a question, it is a guarantee that you also know the answer deep within. The answer is whatever gives you utmost relief. I think life is magical that way.