Hello and a happy new year to all of you!
I was enjoying my two weeks off of work and practically did not do any baking during the holidays . I intended to spend the Christmas vacation doing all the things that I was not able to do for a long time like reading, writing in my journal, self-assessing, listening to music and playing the guitar. Well, two weeks is such a grand time, relatively for a working mom like me- no dressing up for the daycare for my daughter, no waking up too early and no tired afternoons. Such a breeze!
I had a rough time during the late part of 2014 primarily because of my second miscarriage, and then that is coupled up shortly with some low self esteem, failing confidence and self doubt- these are not related to my miscarriage but I just went through that phase where I had doubts about myself – both with my looks and personality. That only goes to show that life has seasons and although I just went through a rough season of my life, I now take it as a wake up call to get in touch with myself again, to make myself better and to reconnect with my values as a person.
This year I have a full pledge to work on my confidence. I aim to be comfortable in my own skin and to enjoy each moment as it is given to me. Over the years, I have shaped myself to play small just not to intimidate anyone, but now I remember that playing small does not serve the world in any way. Keeping our light dim and not letting it shine does not do any thing to touch the world. Even humility is not described as playing small. They are two very different things.
I was able to visit my favorite bookstore, bought myself a book, a journal and a planner. These things are very simple but they do so so so much to change my life and they fuel me greatly. And now, this year, I know that we cant expect life to be always on smooth sailing but I am grateful for the things I have gone through the past year because I was able to re-connect with myself and I am inspired once again to make myself better than before.
So to end my very first post for the year, I would like to leave you with such an inspiring line from a song by Lee ann Womack ( as shared by Oprah on her book),